My LIFE... 10-14-07

Its been 2 days since the last time I wrote in my journal. I've been in this book and learned a lot of new things. Things to do when you get married. the man you want and need in you LIFE when get married. Like a Godly one. One that's going to help you grow, one that's going to strengthen you. And I found out about Miss Delilah. The power she had as a woman. Her beauty. how she's able to touch that little boy that was inside him. Talking to him, she would sing to him. when I asked this co-worker what power did Delilah have, she said just what everyone said, the most common thing everyone knows about her. How she deceived Sampson and took his strength. Well come to find out, it was her beauty no doubt, but it was how she was able to talk to that little boy inside Sampson. Not only that but its truly a blessing to be a single woman. You have all the time in the world for Jesus. he is your husband. If you can't please Jesus, if you can't be faithful to Jesus, if you can't depend on Jesus, if you can't make a commitment to Jesus, how can you make a commitment and all those other requirements to your husband? Then when you do get married, you please your husband, and wife of cares of the world. So at the point God exempts you from him. he says its okay that he doesn't get all your attention. This is your marriage you can have it your way, decorate it, God gives that. Marriage is a ministry. men ans women have different roles. It's almost like I've been already walking right into my ordained destiny. Things I didn't know much, I was already doing.I know this year is my breakthrough. My breakthrough from a marriage that wasn't ordained for my LIFE. But a teaching, trial, and tribulation. A breakthrough from a spiritual battle. A breakthrough from everything that was wrong in my LIFE spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. This is a breakthrough of waling back to my first LOVE. A breakthrough of walking into the man I was created from. A breakthrough of walking into spiritual growth, wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. God is so good. Its amazing how, I feel like I am walking according to what God has for me. I still need some spiritual growth, and understanding. But the preparation I believe is learning, and I'm going into a readiness. Getting the shaping and molding I'm learning more about me as a woman. I'm learning more about what a wife expectations are. Not expectations, but what a wife is to do. What to look for in a husband. something I didn't do when I said "I do". You know the more I read about the roles of a wife, the more I think about my marriage. I remember before I met my husband, I asked the Lord to send me my husband. I said I want a tall, slim not too skinny, not too big, brown skin guy. i got just what i prayed for to. Did I know then what I was doing? All I knew was that God had answered my prayed.Later in the marriage is when I found out that, when you pray for a husband you have to be specific, very detailed about what you want exactly in a husband. After Gaillin was 1, I knew exactly what I wanted. I asked for intelligence, Godly man, humor, to have LOVE for me like no other, someone that can teach me, Lord looks don't matter, just make sure he's tall, and can support me and my children financially, this man had to be able to teach my kids a new way of LIFE, this man has to want and LOVE my kids. Next thing I know...